Bound AND Determined!

Ok, so my sister is getting married in July.  She asked me to be the Maid of Honor.  Of course I said yes!  And there is nothing like being asked to be in a wedding to put a fire under your butt to get in shape, am I right?  I soooo don't want to be the "fat one" in the wedding party.  I will be the largest anyway but I don't want to be the fattest.  I mean, not that the other girls will be fat at all.  Far from it.  My sister, the bride, is a size zero or two, something like that and so is one sister in law that will be in the wedding.  The other sister in law in the wedding just had a baby and the other sister in law is tall and slim and athletic looking but in a nice, non butchy way.  I will never be any of those so....I really have to work at this. 

It's an uphill battle.  I just don't want my face or gut to take up too much space in the pictures.  Not that I am the focus, but I am the MOH and her sister so I anticipate LOTS of picture taking.  I don't want to ruin her pictures. 

So, I started working out several days ago.  I've been watching my diet for awhile now.  Sometimes not close enough but, hey, I'm human and I like food.  A lot.  Anyway...so I'm lifting weights, going on the eliptical, doing cruches, etc and I actually feel like I'm accomplishing something.  Not accomplishing losing any weight yet, but I feel like it's ...something.  I feel like it's better than nothing!

I'm debating on starting Weight Watchers but that costs money and I don't really want to pay.  Especially since I'd have to do it online.  I just wonder where my accountability would come in if I did it online.  Oh well, I can run up and down my stairs for free, right?

So...July is fast approaching and I'm slow at losing.  BUT, I'm bound and determined that I'm going to make this happen and reach my goal of 30lbs gone by the end of June (that leaves me time to buy a new MOH dress if I need to.  Actually with -30lbs I would HAVE to).  I just wish I didn't crave Hot Tamales candy right now.  It's seriously messing with my mojo!

By the way, this is NOT her dress...I'm just showing what I'm up against.  Oh, and the fact that I'm 19 years older than her....Gotta lose 30 pounds and 15 years!